TVLIC

Even from childhood, I was interested in writing. My sisters were my great inspiration of reading. They used to tell me stories of princes, kings, farmers, Purana etc... Those stories created immense curiosity in me. When little more growth came, they made me even more curious with half stories without climax. And with  such an anxiety I started reading the books. Finishing each book was a great experience.
I was not interested in writing anything including exams. But I wrote a dairy of my best school time which was the ending period of pre-degree and the two month vacation. That dairy got stolen by my friends and they became interested in the way I presented it. Congratulations came from all around and some others instructed me to write something. At that time I was not in the right mood to take those in such a way and felt proud about the comments.
In the recent period of exam, we usually feel bored and bad. Wasting time with the social media was the only break. We download videos on different subjects and debate on all those unknown facts. As this progressed I happened to watch a video that describes how to spend time sufficiently. It was saying about making up a character by working daily for little time. I decided to try it. I arranged a subject, rewrote it, and took a big theme after searching and studying a lot. Finally the sample outline become ready. I told the story to my friends and got wide appreciation and best support. But starting with the first chapter made me understand it was not that much easy. The length of the chapter, creation of dialogues, naming of characters, time required for work etc was really tough.
The theme was another problem. The theme I found can be called as the ' Da Vinci Code ' for Indian literature, if I finish the story I will be simply killed.
Let me try to finish it first.

Today was surprisingly wonderful with nothing. After those days of exams with studies and pressure which was injected with fear for future got a small break. Exams are actually a method of evaluation of studies performed, but now it has an emotional impact on the situation and background of performer. The mind of students who are preparing for exams will be travelling through a lot more complicated regions. He will be thinking and have internal pressure due to
1. bulky syllabus ( mostly with a confusion where to start )
2. college lecturers ( what will the teachers think if I fail to pass )
3. friends attitude ( what will my friends think about me )
4. girlfriends face ( she will be sad if I fail )
5. family situations ( I should change the family situation )
6. parents hope ( they dream more from me )
7. parents reputation ( I should not spoil there reputation )
8. enjoyment outside ( can I go out and spent some time free )
9. if I fail after hard work ( what if my preparations shouldn't work at results )
10. my future ( what will I do if I fail or pass )

These were the pressure filling factors or else sometimes something different. Whatever finally after deep thinking practice he or she will be busy with boiling mindset. Now he think about having a cup of coffee, a cigarette or a beer. Simply pressure make him fail. Sometimes or most probably he will make attempts to study, but the big text and bulky syllabus discourage that fresh foot raised towards success. What to do with the situation. Man is build likewise.

Before 20 years from now, in the month of June, and the exact day of his birth as human, god inserted another warrior. A true warrior meant for something; something special. He  gave a special name for him in their mind. A name that means "Slave of God" . And from that day onwards they started calling him Daivas.

Today, I'm 21 year old young man with too much of good words and prayers as credit. Even too much of bad comments also exists.

I was late to bed, watching movie with my mom. I found clock reads 11:50 . Silently I came up the terrace. It was silent and dark. A heavy rain finished its last drops minutes before. My foot became wet soon. Atmosphere provided the best breeze for my birthday welcome. I climbed up to the top most part of terrace. Stretching my hands wide I took a deep breath. I realized I'm experiencing such an empty heart of nothing after a busy fusion of thoughts. I felt immense happiness out of my void heart. Its time to look back to a fine period of life.
From the period that can be collected from memories I got the best childhood and proud teenage. Advice and gentleness from dad, love and care from grandparents, habits and character from mom,  stories and knowledge from sisters, affection and company from cousins finally belief from Church.
Those days of childhood when parents scold for something or when sisters tease me for nothing, I felt it as some big and serious matter of life. And with little shame I realised they wasn't that much serious , they were actually teaching me the best lessons. When I became a teenager, teachers and even students used to laugh at me. But with gods grace I made them clap at me. Again another lesson been taught.
Now, last two years with hundreds of busy thoughts disturbing mind, with the foot raised for next level to step in, and with the whole remaining unanswered questions in mind, I stood free of thoughts. With every stress released .
Thanking god for everything he provided. For a fantastic childhood, energetic teenage, and this incredible youth he delivered. Mom is ready to make b'day cake, friends are waiting to wish, nature is ready to welcome, gifts are wrapped. Let me sleep with empty heart. If god is kind to me then tomorrow will be full of smiles and happiness.