Archive for January 2015

Friday 30 January 2015
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Money money



The morning woke me up with disturbing knocks at the door. I removed the blanket from my face to see whether any of my roommates is awake to open the door for that disturbing guest. Everyone is sleeping or else they are pretending like the dead ones. I woke up disturbed, and opened the door. In front of the door, our house owner seemed to be like the frightening 'poothana'( mythical character from Hindu purana ) with her flawing hair and shouting tounge.

'' Why are you guys so irresponsible! Why can't you understand ?'' She looked irritated. '' I have told you many times not to forget closing gates before you sleep! How can you do this to me.
You never paid me the rent in time and this month it is lagging. And you ever never showed a sign of apology ... Blah... blah..."

After fifteen minutes of continuous lecturing with sparks and blasts it ended quiet. Her jaws will be paining now. After finishing that massive performance she left with satisfaction.
We got it usual with this ritual every morning, with her complaints and soft abuses spreading like the morning alarm makes us energetic whole day. After her return I closed the door and made a glance at the giggling faces budded in the bed-blanket gap.

"How was today's breakfast?? " One spoke while getting up from bed.

"Not bad. But nothing bigger than what you got yesterday"

Within time we all got ready for the college and left. Again the lecturing hours started boringly at our colourful classroom. After the attendance section we were planning for our sleeping section to start. Going with the flow. Before the plan to get implemented, there came the notice saying ' All who have fees pending should see the department head and are not allowed to stay back in the class till the due is paid.' Myself with one of my poor classmate, stepped out from the class and walked towards the department head's office. While walking the way towards office thinking how to pay back the due, two of our juniors passed with both of their heads down to floor.

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Two months ago one of the problem raised among the junior-senior scenario made me involved into it. One group among the juniors tried to make seniors fear for collecting money from them by spreading a fake news that 'they are gonna complain about it soon'. We found the culprit who started spreading the fake news. And a small crowd of seniors and some of the juniors were present in that evening's platform. After some of his arguments and apologies, he got a few slaps in his right cheek making it cherry red. Then he gained some energy to say '' I'm the cousin of city mayor and m gonna complain this for sure.''

It felt like a new comedy said throughout those years in the campus. I came forward slapping him tight and finished with the dialogue. " Believe you know my name. Add this thing too with the complaint you are gonna file. " The real feeling of pride 'nothing matters'.

The next day he did the same he told, with his parents on side. The management fined us ten thousand rupee fine and we were suspended till the fine amount getting paid. Ten thousand for heroism and a brave memory. I had my fees amount at the bank account and with all pride I paid the fine next day morning itself. All of us did as well. We continued to ragging and started collecting money from them. He felt ashamed that time and his heads down every time he come across me was benefited.

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The next turn was our HOD's to scold me. Let me consider it as the second breakfast. The final dialogue from her was heartbreaking. " You know this decision is from the management. I'm helpless. Try paying the fees before 4'O clock." I walked down stairs and reached the gate. There the 'watchman' stopped me and asked for 'gate pass.'

money money
"Get the 'out pass form' signed and come back fast, then the gate will wait for you; opened." He said. Till the last day, he used to allow me out without any pass, and today fate is really bad for me. I never minded, There are old ways where we used to cross those tall walls in times of heavy ragging. I was checking sources for raising fund for my pending fees. Roaming room to room for money, searching for available sources, and they were all empty. We all had a financially tight situation due to the 'examination fee payment season'. I got messed up after that long search for money. It was afternoon and flowing wind carried hot molecules that blushed with skin making me weak. After every hope of light appeared shut, I decided to go back room.

While entering the gates, house owner was shooting me with her focused eyes, whether I'm locking the gates this time. She was giving her pet lunch. Though it was hot inside the room, I sat under the tree shade in the courtyard. Then I got a call from one of my best buddies.

" Hey, I was in a meeting, what's up man ?" He started.
I was not in a mood to start with anything. But I did. " Sorry, I called you for something.... That.... "

            " What 'something' ? " He wanted me to reply.

  " I needed some money for my pending fees and it is dry with all in here.. nd soo... I think I will miss the semester exams this time."

               " How much ? "

" Ten thousand " I felt little shy. But it is better to ask him than begging home or else I have to forget about the exams that semester.

" Okay; I will transfer you the amount, send me your account details. collect the money next Monday morning itself." The first part of the dialogue made me a bit alive but the next half made me realize today's bank hours are over.

"Thank you very much; but today is its last date for payment." Both of us are helpless now. We repeated the question ' What to do ' three times and ended the conversation with a bye. Two more calls came as a sequence. But results made me paralyzed under the tree shade. I felt like something is ready to burst inside and trying to come outside. I opened up a huge scream releasing all those maddening pressure inside. This weird thing provided a bit of peace but just for seconds. House-owner came with my late lunch ; shouting abuses and intolerable firing.

" What do you think of yourself! Who are you to shout like this.. Such mannerless creatures!! '' It was NMFP. I was not prepared for lunch and my stomach or else mind was already full with problems. She continued.

" Neighbours will start complaining and I am the one to reply them. What is your problem. I don't want you to stay in here anymore." Her voice came slow and silent declaring the scary drama is going to end. "Pay me the whole money Monday itself. Rent with an extra ten thousand. I will give you the pending fees money. " As she finished, reply came automatically.

" What!! " It took some seconds to realize, she actually said that. " Oh freak!! " It was a moment which actually slipped my mind out from its case.
By the time she returned back her home and came back in a minute with some money.

" I know what's eating you. Go pay your fees and come back with the money Monday itself." Reply stuck inside me for a second. " You never know how much I did to you wrong. I don't know what to say. Let me go and come back soon... and thank you.. "

A feeling of shyness mixed with nervous mindset left a smile for the first time.
While turning back to college, mind was fully shaded with some memories where I misunderstood her. Friends are all around. Celebrations will be there. Needs and help can introduce new characters and relations. We can see good in everyone if we are ready for it or else we should wait for regretful situations to realize it.




Tuesday 13 January 2015
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The Mystery Behind Breakups


Reason Behind Break-up's
The speciality that bonds a water bubble is its beautiful sphere created and the very sad thing about the same is its very small lifetime. '' Beautiful for a second and Bursting out to nothing " The hero and heroine of this Love story are my intimate friends and we were part of the same city. We study in three different colleges of the city. We used to meet at the 'grill n chill' restaurant once or twice a month. Relational maintenance is done airways, so called social media.

They were friends when I met her the first time at a parlour. They were good friends from a nearby locality and I joined them with smiles and words. I was there as a viewer from the beginning of this usual love story.

I personally doesn't like them getting tagged to another relation because I know that can separate me from the circle anyway.  You know.... ...     some sort of.... ... ..       a piece of envy ..... ...     or something likewise............ ..... .. .

Aryan is a Romeo type, stylish guy who like to ride his bike, party every time or flirting with someone, such a boy who spends time for roaming with friends and chatting with girls every time. She too was such a kind who likes long rides, parties, friends, shopping's etc. so to get attracted to him was not been a big magical thing. She proposed him in front of me and he was already in love with her to accept her request. And that relation of being lovers continued beautifully but boring through airways communication. I was the intermediate in solving there problems while they quarrel for nothing. After six months of their friendship + love season, she shifted to a rented house with her friends, where she got much freedom than being a paying guest. It should be considered as the second stage of modern love. They understood more and more about each other. They are practically finding each others interest with the good and bad in them. They started to go for trips and parties making each other happy and sharing wonderfully than ever. After a part of such life, enjoying more than five months, they took the decision of living together in the same apartment. And it was absolutely fine for them to live likewise.

By the time, he lost his friends because of his run for love. Chatting the major part of time with her, lost his interest in everything and made his friends feel bad about him. He started feeling lonely at the room where her absence and mates silence disturbed him a lot. This also made him conclude to the decision about changing the habitat.

Finally they started living together as like man and wife. They were happier than ever.

                     In the platform of happiness they gave me a treat at their new apartment letting myself to enjoy with them. I remember that day we drunk a lot to sleep. In the midst of all those happy moments, I even sang a song praising them a better married life after.

The life started for them, and after two wonderful weeks she gave me a call saying he is not doing anything and he is a lazy dumb . That repeated after two three days calling me with some more negative comments regarding him. Calling me for the same became a frequent thing in a month. I got irritated and warned her not to call me again regarding these silly things.
After some days I visited their apartment, and find him going college daily apart from the usual serial bunker phase. That night I had a beer with him and was talking about her faults like shouting every second, restricting everything etc... The situation for him was worse than ever because he should find the money for major part of rent and shopping. He can't restrict himself from flirting with girls and she can't accept that. She wanted him to stay asleep, while she work on her studies overnight. Funny thing is that he likes spending time sleeping. After another month it was hard for me to believe that they finished it with the tag 'The End' separating themselves to strangers.

                          Isn't we witness true love??  Do you believe true love never break up ??
This story left me some questions and definitions that made me let find its answers.
What actually is love and thus formed relations, friends, lovers and helpers is one among them.
I understood love is something that lies in performing an action we don't want to, but dedicating the same for someone we care. The best example is the mom who creates the next generation beautiful. She is the one who patiently work for her son or daughter even if they say 'I hate you'. The love that will not accept break up from both sides.

So is giving out our pride, selfishness, anger etc. for the one we care will teach us the true love. It sometimes will not give best friends in life, but surely true friends. Even they can provide true love and great relations which can make us never feel lonely.

Another interesting fact I found is the major reason for breakups. It is simple but unacceptable.
Loving couples will not agree if I say 'knowing each other more than required' as the cause of breakups. Every human being is attracted to the other because of the interest within oneself to know the other. If you understood what is the best and worst about someone; interest dies. It is too simple so that I can explain it another way.

Imagine you got a big metal box while digging some corner of your land. And you will be dying to open it and to discover what is hidden inside. If the oracle is saying you should open it after two weeks, you will be thinking about the box every time and will take care of the box giving it a good and secure place to rest. After two weeks you are opening the box and finds nothing valuable inside it. Your interest dies along with its position as a great thing. It becomes a waste box and normal one as like the other boxes at home.

The truth is, we’re all fascinated by the mysterious and forbidden. It’s like it’s programmed into our very nature. Same is the thing about your partner. In the beginning he/she feels like the unrevealed box and that provides him/her a great position in life. Believes he/she can change my life. After some months of real life experiences and realization, we will realize there is nothing unknown about him/her and he/she becomes a normal box and finally find these usual  things getting bored. Finally the bored mind itself creates bad comments, problems etc. about their partner for nothing but for time pass.

It is better to conclude with an advice that can hold the relations. It is also simple. One should protect the space of their partner, keep believing he/she is something more than what I know. Show some formality of gentleness among yourself. And the box will surely live a lifetime as precious as it is considered.

Wishing you a best year ahead. Surprises are awaiting you with a better fortune. Don't rush to open it fast. If you believe and stay calm for the right time it will surely bring you surprises.