Tuesday 14 August 2018

Are you a proud Indian?

Before I start with the not so likely article here, let me wish you all a happy independence day. It's high time when we celebrate seventy two years of Indian independence; it is important to think and analyze ourselves as a society that fought for freedom years back. We were growing both economically and technologically fast forward in these years. Yes, we have grown a lot. Let's put it straight in the table.

- We have become a populated nation with huge number of human resource availability.
- We have emerged as the fourth best defence mechanisms in the world.
- We have gone faraway heights to be sixth in space technology.
- We have learned enough to be the world's second largest english speaking society.
- We are third in having most number of millionaires in the World.
- We are number one in mobile phone usage, in certain entertainment fields such as cricket, kabadi and film production.

What do you think? Isn't it enough for us, the country with ultimate man power, in the world's largest democracy to celebrate? It is important to see where we stand as a country or as a society in terms of basic living and harmony. If you go for facts, I'm sure you'll hang your head with shame.

I will quote few of our current conditions and ranking we have achieved internationally.

- According to the Indian census 2011, the population of India has crossed the 1-billion mark. India will be world’s number-1 populous country, surpassing China by 2025.
- We are second best in migrating to other countries.
- Life expectancy is 125th among 183 countries offering 68 years of average lifetime.
- Infant mortality is 113th among 223 countries, means 37 kids die during every 1000 births.
- In the global hunger index we are 97th out of 119 countries, means, 190.7 million or 14.5% of the population is undernourished in India.
- Our health expenditure per capita stands in 140 among 190 countries.
- Literacy rate is at 168th position among 234 countries with 26% percent of India highly illiterate.
- In the world happiness report, we are at 133 among the 155 countries considered. Sad to accept we live in an unhappy country.
- In the Human Development Index we are at 131, that is far away from hope.
- In terms of social progress we are in 93rd position considering 128 countries.
- If a child have to be born, our country is its 66th option according to economist intelligence unit.
- In Global Youth Development Index we are way back to 134 out of 183.
- More than 1.5 crores of people is homeless.
- In terms of gender inequality we are at 125 from the 188 countries considered.
- More than 18000000 people are living in modern slavery.
- Our per capita GDP is much lower to put us in 139th position among 187 countries.
- Our minimum wage given for labourers is less than 124 countries in the world.

It goes on. These figures doesn't make me feel proud of being an Indian. Rather, these figures make me a responsible Indian.
Being a responsible Indian all I can do in a democratic country is to make sound that reflects the need of growing further to achieve further.
Being a responsible Indian I can realize the importance of my power as a citizen and make my impression in the growth of our nation.
Being a responsible citizen I can think of the root cause and solution of the current situation and work for the betterment of it.
Being a responsible Indian I can use my democratic power to analyze and vote for the right candidate.
Being a responsible Indian I can push the current government to walk the right direction.
Being a responsible citizen I can work towards becoming proud of being Indian.

But do you think you are free to do so? To be frank, I'm afraid. If our media is right, what is happening to journalists is terrifying me. A youth that is ignorant and proud without cause is putting me in fear. Once I raise my voice,(that I'm suppose to) I'm called anti-Indian. I'm a supporter of the current Prime Minister for his courage to come up with schemes like demonetization and GST, irrespective of its results. At the same time I oppose the communal hatred his followers preach. But I'm afraid to speak, to do my duty to the country I live in. People are asking me to shift to a country according to my religious beliefs. It is really saddening to say that I can't even do my duty as a citizen to the country I live and I love.

To conclude, let me repeat certain points. For a better India, as a responsible citizen, the first thing we need to acknowledge is that India is nowhere before the world in terms of any potential standard. For most of the foreigners I know, India is cheap, filthy, and poor. To change the world's perception is not an easy task. But if we are ignorant and proud of it, nothing is going to change. If we need to change, I have few points to make.

1. To know real India and its current status in global level.
As I have described above, it is really important to acknowledge where our country stand before the world. We have to realize the elements that make foreigners think we are cheap, filthy and poor. Then we have work to reduce cheap labour, quality less entertainment, ugly environment and poverty in places. First we need to build the base before start flying.

2. To be silent about the old Great India we believe to have existed.
To be true, India never existed before British. Before British rule, it existed as 100 different countries fighting each other for pride. So India, as we have now is just a 72 year old country. Let's don't forget, but keep the great culture and civilization of past glory in mind until we reach into a position where we can display them before world with pride. Otherwise the world is only going to take it as a loser's outcry.

3. To read news papers, understand and react to issues that is happening around.
As civilians in a democracy, we need to understand our value and position in shaping our society. If you feel media is fake, we can change it. Rather than being a follower of any political party, be the follower of the right things it choose. Rather than being a defender of opposition, be the acceptor of feedback it offers. In the age of social media, learn to accept and correct ourselves before criticisms other than defending it with opposition's faults.

We will grow that way, before the world, as a mighty great nation, so I can feel proud of its wonderful achievements.

I dream of my India, standing tall and proud before the world, and I believe in its potential to grow wonderfully well in terms of social harmony. Let the religious hate and political intentions end for a better India I can present before the changing world. Happy Independence Day.

Thursday 19 January 2017

JALLIKATTU


Crowd stood in rigor with their amber eyes blazing at afternoon's sunshine. Their throat went dry absorbing the spirit of sublime emotion prodded in veins. A huge applause emerged from west of the gathering along with brassy unorganized raucousness. In the center of mass, a tall powerfully built young man with his quick burning gait and muscular hands took a swift twitch jumping on to the barbarous bull, clinging on his neck trying to bring him under control. Digging his solid arm into the stiff curves of its body for grip. The bull fought back trying to wrench him off, shaking his huge tough body possibly the most inaccurate way. The audience shouted in vilification, their voice stronger enough to praise every Tamilian's pride and bravery. The fearlessness in his eyes bearing courage to encounter any struggles in front was an expression of Tamilian pride before world. The crowd screaming in the power of an extremely engaging sport enhanced and proclaimed the strength of a rich culture that taught humanity its civilized ways.

Bullfighting, the sport that is legal in many countries like Spain, France, US etc. became illegal
in India two years before. The relevance of Jallikattu unlike other countries is that it is both dangerous and original sport unlike most of the sports in other countries. No one in any country or culture dare to fix a fight with bull using his bare hands and determination.
It is important to support Tamil people and their culture canvassing the massive gathering of peaceful Tamil youth in order to preserve their culture. It is important to preserve the green and freshness remaining in the heart of Tamil villages while the world swiftly exchange to a robotic grey era. The major fact that attracted me was the unorganized platform that attracted youth to assemble over a common cause. This social assembling that holds zero assistance from political parties intends to uplift consciousness of authority in contemplating their decision.

Jallikattu is a matter of Indian Pride. 
Sport of a brave Generation. 
Piece of an Ancient Culture. 

We Support Jallikattu! Save Jallikattu! Remove ban on Jallikattu!


Thursday 12 January 2017

Dark Reflections!

In Memory of College Life!


Waiting for the Cleaner Guy To Come..




In Dark Waited Traitors of Senior! 




The Day Celebration After Exams!




The College Walls that Taught the Art of Jumping!




Lively Eventful Onam Celebration!




What About Going Ooty For a Tea?





Long Days of Smoky Shades!




The New Year Nights That Rocked!




Rameshan's Tea and Snack is a Must every Evening!




The Second Year Start That Marked With a Fight





Beginning of Study Tours with Sounds of Usual Alcohol Addicts!





Gate Keeper Says: Gates Closed!





Countless Journeys That Never Ended!


Sunday 2 October 2016

Those Who Seek War are Terrorists.

Imagine this scenario. While traveling in a bus Ramu happens to hit Raju accidently. In return Raju responds back with a much stronger hit. When Ramu tries for an antagonistic blow passengers intervenes in-between and threw both out from the bus. Ramu feels insulted and calls for help. Watching this Raju appeal his friends into the scene resulting in abuses and they leads off to fighting afterwards. It turns out to be racial or caste linked fight dramatically. After a saga of miscellaneous happenings many fight each other ending in butchery.
This sort of occurrence is not unfamiliar in India. Now wake up from your imagination and reconsider it this way. Consider Pakistan as Ramu and India as Raju. Bus resembles our border area and other passengers are civilians of border states. Their friends resemble weapons and racial/caste relations in the issue corresponds to media. When people die, life ends. Along with life, someone's hope, love and dreams expires.
Now make a favourable twist in the story and try to re-imagine it. One forgives during dispute’s birthplace itself and crash concludes. People continue to exist in peace and life is being preserved.
Once when I was a kid, one of our favourite educator told us a story. In one of the international concerts, with the presence of representatives from all prodigious nations, went Vivekananda representing India. When the meeting progressed, representatives of each country went on counting their credits and numbered the countries they have conquered. Subsequently came the turn for Indian representative. Vivekananda was silent.
"What happened mister? Tell us something about your country," appended one. Vivekananda replied calm; "India haven’t attacked or conquered any country in its known history." Everyone sniggered.
"We had great civilizations, great mathematicians, odd resources and much more. We let people live. We stood for peace. We let peace grow in our borders and welcomed everything that came in."
"Now tell me, whether the ones who farmed terror is great or the one stood for good and peace" Everyone in the hall stood speechless.
We had this culture of farming amity, adoration and harmony. Our father of nation 'Gadhiji' showed us how to protest precluding violence. He taught us how the mantra of ‘ahimasa’ bring on success. Now what we propose is war and destruction. The justification raised includes terrorism, revenge, resistance, defence, counter attacking etc.
Whether our brains are froze enough to cover the fact ‘war means destruction’? I remember these words "Weapons never bring peace; they are designed for destruction." It dilapidate lives. Not only theirs, but also our people's too. Many caring fathers, obedient sons, passionate husbands,responsible brothers and good saviours will vanish adding credit to our country betraying their lives. Our economy will drop with the idea of destruction. People starve in our neighbourhood. The curse of sorrow will never let us live in peace.

I'm not a supporter of BJP or RSS. But this move from the government ended great. With the surgical attack, we did a great thing and showed the world we still help people other than fighting each other.
          
  This act from our side appeared similar to the farmer who helped his neighbour to remove some parasite plants from his plot. We showed the world our helping mentality and forgiveness unlike the foolish Raju and Ramu. They fought for pride, killing themselves and letting their family suffer.
For the last few days, latest news India showed a lot of people promoting war through social media. The reasons can be revenge, an exhibition of our strength or the pride we have. Whatever be the reason remember, it takes only seconds to end lives but needs patient effort to build up peace.

Be Wise; Prevent War.

Sunday 19 June 2016

The Bad Side Effects of “Quoted Life”




Quotes are trending

Quotes that suits every occasion

Some Quotes are motivational 

Some are inspirational

Some makes you happy

Some leads you forward

Some are solutions to problems.

Ever tried living accordingly?

Then try it once

It’s Fun.

 I tried it once.

Everyone said, you’re great 

That motivated me

Collected more quotes

I found something

For situations, they crossed each other

One supported me and the other dissented

Then for every situation, I found two

Then came the craze to find it out


Then came the maze to live the double

Then came the days of inner conflict

Became sleepless, the sleepless nights

There wasn’t an answer.

The gone sleep didn’t come back

The great became the great sleepless.

The great sleepless became dumb

Then one quote said ‘Go try’ and the other said ‘Be yourself’

Still confused, fighting each other

Still dumb, result of a ‘quoted life’

If you still believe in quotes

Remember this quote

“Fuck the quotes and live your Life”


Tuesday 5 April 2016

The Revolutionary Changes

PREFACE

All characters appearing in this work are fictitious. Any resemblance to real persons, living or dead, is purely coincidental. 


It was raining that day. The hot atmosphere tried cooling itself, leaving its hot vapour up the sky. Every drop of this particular rain appeared heavy, holding a handful of molecules that are supposed to separate within the second. We stood in the rain defending each other, allowing heavy drops to hit our dry skin to get wet. A drop was waiting at her nose tip for the perfect timing to drop itself into collapse. I kissed her! In her lips! The sweat smelling little drop rewrote its fortune spreading onto my face.



Part 1

Emergence


Let me tell you a story. Story of an orphan who got an extraordinary chance to live. The one who started believing in him and was peculiar in his style of thoughts. He got good food, a family and above all, an un-imaginable life.
I couldn’t remember those days that left me alone. From the day I met him, I got everything better than anyone else. My dad, my mom, my great family and the world of mine. Obedience was the only thing he asked for and patience was the only thing I gave in return. A great coaching troop of trainers all around offered the best childhood with stories, games, knowledge and qualities. My dad was like a landlord, involved in local politics and such kind of stuff which made him surrounded with problems. Whatever be the bad smelling incidents around, he always looked at me with his smiling gentle face.
I’m his only proud son. I had that defect of irrational thoughts which were creative enough than their imagination, maybe because of that fact they didn’t sent me school. Maybe because of some other reason it happened. But they offered me home tuitions and workout sessions where I performed my levels of patience and obedience. I lived in a temple related background, so that my mom expected everything will get right through god. Realization of my defect stuck me when I entered the society through temple groups. I started achieving heights and won every sections I stepped. I just made ‘more than a usual kid’ status within time. The respect villagers gave, the positions I was elected to, the partialities that was given to me, the decisions I had right upon and everything taught me about the speciality in my birth with the defect of up-normal thinking. My little ideas worked out wonderfully making huge transformations in the society and in our local family business.
The praising poems I wrote and the stages I starred with appealing speeches contributed me a kind of confidence.  I should have thanked God a hundred times for my happiness and for the gift of my sagacious brain. There was the only one school-aged organising committee member, during family meets and annual programmes, who fascinated the audience. Those happenings transformed me into a star within the small village atmosphere.
Something changed while I grew up strong and bold. Dad became week both physically and socially when his late product added age to his credit. Everything around me was good and I lived my life. Many kids used to blame me when their parents compare them with my status, as a role-model of excellence and acceptance.
I had everyone friendly around me; small hanger baby to old toothless seniors. But everyone should have some friends of their age for sharing the age talk. I do had some.
After finishing my schooling in home, the age group talks became more interesting. My friends were talking about, small love stories, gang wars, friendship strength, and much more stuff, in which novels, televisions and movies habituated me before.
My desire for a better enjoyable life was getting stronger and bolder. After creating a big storm of sentimental atmosphere, I succeeded with my decision to fly towards freedom. Even if my dad didn’t wanted me to fly outside, he agreed unwillingly, unable to cope with the new young man’s theory. That was my first dis-obedient performance that changed everything. Everything I had and everything I was.
Watching some engineering students enjoying their life and from the stories they narrated, I made my love for pursuing engineering. But there was another condition. ‘I have to go study outside the state’ and that is the reason why I selected ‘Pallavanore’ city in Tamilnadu, which is more near to Kerala, as my place of interest.
There we had a totally different atmosphere with a large group of students, who made a world as their own with a useless lifestyle. Everything there was acculturative and taught me something good about the world. They showed me the world was too big to understand and experience. I kept thoughtful about personalities, behavior, patterns and uniqueness of life. Addiction was the major part of that life. Addicted to coffee, liquor, laziness, drugs, partying, criticism and much more. It was like travelling in a time machine, from a village past world into a city future world. My interest in speech, writing, martial arts and dance competed with the future world of e-gadgets, online shopping, music and drugs. Finally I failed and the technology won. I ended up in a room, with high bass speakers, smoke all over the space, and mobile phones at my fingertips. An unresponsive slave of an addictive lifestyle. The unexpected consequence of disobedience.

After the four years of dark age, I went back home losing myself competing with the exams and classes, there to find an old black shaded home, with two old lives. My dad and my mom! He was week and was struggling with problems that he never wanted to share with me. Life was struggling at some part but I realised the one they let me know was only its smooth end. There our big house appeared too small, and it was empty leaving my dad and mom back in the small room at the back corner.

Reality stuck me. I understood the seriousness of problems I made. I should build back my family, strengthen our business relations, solve the problems and join everyone together. I tried getting up from bed and tried working for it. Then I understood ‘I’m not that heroic star anymore.’ I realised the silent escape of all those applauses around me. Time erased everything good around me. My memory, activeness, processing speed and smartness. I just became a useless normal kid within these four years. Everything around me has tumbled. God made the big line small drawing a large one near to it. Every house has been rebuild and is new-fashioned now. The fancy car and phone which were our symbol of lordship became a basic facility everyone had. Everyone around us evolved into a new start. We are still in the past, with the big turned small house and old pride.

You must be boring reading an old sentimental story. By the way, my name is ‘Dhyan Raghav.’  






Part 2

This is How it Started


It was in the last September, I saw him for the first time. He was one among the interview attendees waiting at the office door. We are from two different states with different languages and two different religions with different customs. We were almost opposites with our mother tongue, customs, character and style. How can opposites attract in life? Maybe this is the magic of love.

I, myself is the senior class designer of ‘Futurefleas’ gaming company located in the Tech city of India.  I’m here for the last two years; from that day I came from college, as part of my internship programme. He was an unfit for our small company, with his neat looks and gentle expressions that were too much for us. We have only some small groups of designers and trainers in the company in which we made a Tamil world with the majority of eight Tamil employees. There is another senior designer from ‘Kerala’ (from his native) who don’t know our language ‘Tamil’; the only Mallu (Keralite) known to me before. We used to tease him every day even though he possessed meritorious amount of material yield.

He was positioned next to my friend ‘Shree’ for online eligibility test as part of first round interview scenario. While breathing, the fresh air entered him and get mixed with the smelling tobacco and travelled back to us. We were teasing him loud, sitting around his place, concluding he knows no Tamil. He was wearing a blue neat shirt with semi black trousers and his cheeks were neatly trimmed creating a handsome sexy appearance. We derived it from his facial status; ‘he will not come back to this company.’ After sometime of his dismissal we discussed about him with our HR ‘Reshma Madam.’ She started laughing and explaining about what all he told. ‘He just finished the college, have many back lobes, he loves programming, he said Mallus never help each other, he can’t return back home without a job, and so and so.’ Her muscles in face convulsed.

After three days he came again, ready to join our company and that was a surprise for all of us. We looked at each other and made a smiling glance. Reshma choose ‘Jeena’ (my best friend and college mate) for training him and another experienced entrant joining that day. I stroll into the conference room with her, just to see the one who broke our expectation. Reshma gave a preface explanation about the job and handed it to Jeena. While she started with the basics I left back with Reshma. After five minutes ‘Jeena’ came back saying ‘he knows Tamil’ and she left back to the training session. After the morning tea, they came back to some vacant cabin other side. That day ran faster than expected. The next day, Jeena was leaving our company with one year experience and was running for new company and better job. I felt the emptiness when she stood up from her seat and said bye. For the last four years’ time, she was always been near to me. I do behave like an emotional idiot in times. I know, I am!

The next day morning, I was looking at her seat emotionally and was thinking about an escape from this company. I will beetle off from here as soon as I complete my studies going on. Reshma called me out from her cabin at the corner.

          “Stella! GM told not to continue with ‘Dhyan’ in the main part. He is mindless and of no substance. Please train him to write the basic level programming. Can you do that? ” That meddle had the habit of slaying with smile.

“No Problem Mam; I will” I returned her humble smile. When she gave him instructions, I felt disturbed. Disturbed without any reason. Maybe Reshma can be the reason. He came and sat near to me. I was little confused about how to start with the program thing. Finally I did,
“Take your notepad and note down the formats I explain.” He gave a foolish dumb facial expression and said. “It’s Okay; just tell me, that’s fine.” He gave it a childish immature accent.
“What do you think of yourself? Can you grasp everything from the sound? Do you know how much I have wrote?” I flew of the handle and opened my notepads and diary before him. He looked back at me with popped out eyes and the same comical dumb facial expression. He took his pen and notepad and waited for something to start.


I felt afraid why I did it likewise. Maybe his part in my life needed an unusual start.


Part 3

Gentleman Deal


After trying again and again, I crafted a lot of attempts to head start with something that can empower me to work with the change that could be synthesized for a resurrection.  But everything went wrong and impeded presenting negative thoughts. A month of sleepless nights passed by. Every mornings presented a headload of pain and depression. A new plan budded every second and they crashed each other up in my brain, building complicated networks that made my clock screwy.  Sentimental comments came when I came out to the street, from those people around that turned into an unacceptable challenge for my prideful status. That was the reason why I left my village to explore the new possibilities of evolving.



Even though I suspected not to go back ‘Pallavanore’, I did it because, it was the only place I felt local to the surroundings. There I had some savvy friends who dreamt of a long trip together, towards an unknown destination. But the condition we had was not that stable with financially backward situation. So we made a small trip catching the next train that arrived in the nearby station. The next day morning witnessed ‘Bangalore city.’ Even though ‘Bangalore’ is special for its IT Companies and Technological world, we saw it in other way. The easy availability and cheap price of liquor and wine compared to neighbouring states made Bangalore special for us. So we choose to relax from morning itself. We have quite a little friends there and a usual hangout PUB where we danced during college trips.

Arrows at the clock ran faster and pointed at four when I made the second glance. We were talking about the vexed issues of unexpected reality that changed our lives into disaster this soon. After a day long discussion starring future possibilities, we settled on changing the subject so because, same subject the whole day felt lifeless without conclusions. So my friend selected the subject of love that have more complications to talk about. Even though the subject didn’t felt suitable for our present condition, I liked opposing love stories from college days.

My friends had love stories that grow up within social media, and ended up in bed. Maybe some short love stories. One started with his usual comment, “You know, among the hundred movies released in India, surely ninety-eight will explain a love story. So there exists love and there is life within itself. Maybe you should experience it to know how it works.” I have a bad tendency of opposing everything that unwillingly suits my concept. I got my time then.

“Okay guys! Explain me what’s love? When should we call it true and mythical? Have you ever seen a true love story for real? There is no made for each other thing either. Only human lust and care is combined and we call it as love. It will not exist for a lifetime. That is why intelligent ancients made religions and made ‘one man one woman rule,’ as a matter of religious outcome, so as to keep the human quality of self-control for our race to move forward.” When my volume raised from scoring energy, couples all around pointed at me with their distressed faces. Probably I should have disturbed some dating plans. But I didn’t quit. “We change our behaviour, style, trend, likes and dislikes often with latest fads. If someone gets interested in you because of your character and style, we are going to change them within sometime. Any girl can love, as many guys and any boy can love as many girls as he wants. If you can stay at one, you are the owner of such a quality mind.” Soon I noticed the silence around me awaiting end for my conceptual speech. So I thought of ending it easy and simple. I don’t want to make them bored again and reached towards climax. “Each and every girl is flexible and will change their mind with time, so do boys.”

That climax wasn’t that acceptable. So they started again with the reply. “So you say every girlfriend is flexible, and will change their mind with mood and time. I can’t totally accept that rubbish.” He blew a fuse when he added words, becoming crazy with my theory. “Alright, do one thing. Prove us your theory.” He was about to start a massive attack, before that I injected in. “Prove? What to prove? Whom to prove? I was just sharing a thought; if it doesn’t seems digesting, leave it free.” Though I was just ending it, my tail end smile displayed it like escaping. So they got the chance. “How can you just say that in the public? If it was your foolish dumb thought then it should stay back in your mind. You said it because the mighty Dhyan is able to prove it.” Everyone approved it with intentional dialogues that followed. “It’s simple, choose a girl and change her mind, make a new trend and that’s it.”

“Doing that to a girl is terrible. How can you say such things! Even though I try, I should find a girl first.” I objurgated.

“Finding a girl is nothing man, Can’t you see sexy girlfriends all around. Now you will say, none are challenging for you.” He was locking my only word of hope with that precaution comment. I just wanted to end that teasing war reaching targeted towards me. “Okay! Which girl? You just select one for me. I’m ready.” He haven’t had the intension of quitting.

“Before that I have one more thing to say. Let’s make it a bet as we always do. Tell me what you can accept if you can’t make it in time. That’s the gentleman procedure.” Foolish scoundrels around supported him with the ‘OoHaa’ sound. I didn’t wanted to stay silent before the winning party. So I counterbalanced with confidence.

“Alright; let’s make it a gentleman deal. What if I succeeded with the motive? What can you offer me back?” We usually make gentleman deals for fun and I do earn the most of it. But the speciality of this particular deal is the presence of that unknown lady. They paused for a minute and one started again. “Let’s fix the girl first, and we will continue with the deal.” They all started counting around and I was checking through their faces. They made some suggestions and amended it with some else. Finally the guy who fixed the deal fixed the girl.

“I know how hard it is to get trapped with the situation. So I can help you with a favour. It seems like that girl at the restaurant table is having some problem with her boyfriend. It will be much easier to get her if you can act like a caring friend now.” I didn’t even looked at the table because I was determined to reply him before that. “Thanks! Six month time is all I need. What will you accept when you get failed with this?” And I looked at the girl and I couldn’t even see her properly because she sat some hundred degree other side.

“Okay, we altogether will offer you a ‘Manali’ trip free of cost.” He checked with others in a glance while finishing. “And what will be your price of defeat?” I don’t have any answers to explain. So I kept thinking. “What do you want me to do? Some favour or a curse to accept myself.” These are the two ‘gentleman deal’ options available. “You can decide that too.” He throw me a much confused decision to make.

“Okay! I will work in your timber mill just for food and shelter; means without a single rupee salary.” My low voice made them confident, producing a bewitching smile as its sign. He find that fascinating even though others find it stodgy. “You are going to be treated as a slave; are you sure, you said that?”
“Do you think Dhyan is brainless or fatuous to make asinine comments?” Everyone around looked at me with a ‘did that hurt him’ thought. They know I’m adamant with my decisions, and adding a trivial outlook completed my comfortable state. The guy sitting opposite me beckoned to the other when he started at something with a ‘sorry’.

“Let me see my girl first, then lets continue with another topic.” I stood up from the couch, placed bottle at the table and walked intentionally towards the washroom crossing the restaurant. There is no sentiments or compromise with gentleman deals; such related talks faded when I walked away. On my way back from washroom, I was looking at her for calculating my first gut instinct.
She wasn’t that pulchritudinous, but was old-fashioned girl with frameless specs and pleasing style. Even though my gut instinct gave me a favourable reply, the second thought erased everything with a negative flash.
I was thinking like going to her and asking like “What happened sweetheart? Any problem?”
 “Then her boyfriend will come for me and I beat him there. Watching me beating her boyfriend makes her impressed and ask me for the favour of dropping her home. While I drive, police jumps into the scene and the escape related incidents make her love me from that day itself.”
This is the beginning strategy of love in every Telugu movie. But now I know life is much worse than movies.

We drunk until we fall and sleep, teasing each other, ignoring the girl and the task waiting at the restaurant. 


Part 4

My Presumptions


Job in here cast down to be colourless within days. Absence of ‘Jeena’ was making the whole atmosphere lonely for me. I got more of the stuff to handle everyday like training the new entrants, working with my team in programming, extra fill outs and call outs from GM, and debugging submissions. The only thing that felt savouring was, getting placed between two trainee guys as their trainer. The one was a Pentecostal Christian who was an extra fine character with first looks and was graduated from somewhere in States with an experience of three years in web-developing. I was afraid what to and how to tell ‘Sam’ about the procedures. But when I kick off to start, he gave back a supportive matured response and absorbed everything I told for action.

But ‘Dhyan’ the other guy was just the opposite. Not just the opposite, but he was more than that. He was a fresher from some unknown college in ‘Pallavanore,’ near to my Top Ranking College of that city. He haven’t even completed the course. He is here as a trainee with less than the basic salary. More than that he is a moronic lacklustre with careless mind and dumb brain. Ahh... That was relaxing!!

The first day itself, after my lengthy explanation he said ‘he understood everything’ and on the go he came up with doubts. Usually teachers encourage doubts, I think he is over-motivated in this. If disturbing with doubts is an art, he must be a professional among such artists. For example, you are going for a tea in the nearby store and the waiter is asking you about it. “What about the tumbler sir, paper or glass? Do you want it hot or medium? What about the sugar sir? You want it strong or light sir? Sir do you like to opt for any varieties like ginger tea, special tea or green tea? Do you want anything else with it? Sugar?”
How irritated you must be? Training him is like hearing and getting irritated with the condition for nine hours a day. You can calculate it now, my ability of patience.


While this thing was going on in its way, I gave him a program to study and explained him to examine it and explain the same in five minutes. He started scanning it making a sound similar to one that kids make while playing with toy car. It was an application created for ‘Medical Products and Marketing.’ While I turned my head back to system with the relief of a pause from him, he turned back to me and asked in a rush.
“What is this thing Viagra?”
In a second I got confused and words came out without my permission. “What?” The other guy ‘Sam’ heard that. He turned to us. He asked again with a ‘Do I did anything wrong’ expression.
“What is ‘Viagra,’ it’s getting repeated in the text.” I just get stunned without an answer and looked back to the system and observed him still counting on me. The guy other side busted into laughter and managed to say ‘I will tell you later, go on with your work.’

In the other minute, my stunned and excited reaction became text and travelled to ‘Shree’ and ‘Athira’. In the next second, two faces budded up the cabin with a semi-smiling pause looking at me and him frequently. I burnt up with anger and restlessness with a comic unknown signal. That day passed with a load full of teasing targeted towards my situation.

He told me many things without a question. He didn’t pass the exams, he is from a family in a village at Kerala, and he plans to make a duplicate graduation certificate and the plan of making money for that, etc.…

He don’t use his mobile phone much, but occasionally there comes some secret call in which he talk in good western English. He told me he has the problem of overthinking which disturbs a man from sleeping. Overthinking has another name for its mental condition ‘Analysis Paralysis.’ He told me he don’t like sentimental people and he teased Tamil movies for having an over-sentimental hero.
After a week I end up confused about who he must be. That weekend, my mind was full of him, sharing with my friends and thinking about him. During the daily chats with my boyfriend, my tongue tip keep repeating his name ‘Dhyan’ even though I’m afraid to do so. Categorically analysing, he is an unfit with all cases. He is new like fresh and raw. A very different man I have ever seen in my whole life.

He started teasing me and Shree whenever he gets the chance. Athira was the only one who replayed him whenever she gets the chance and he controls it silently. When we girls in gang comes together we arrest him in the cage. I do use the opportunity, performing smart before others.

One thing I noticed about him is that he gets tensed when anyone use the word ‘business.’ Maybe he don’t like business, or maybe he has a story starts from business fall, or maybe he is betrayed from some business, maybe his parents... He is mysterious and I thought the only one who know him is his friend and my other trainee Sam. I started about him with Sam but he don’t know him out of office. They leave together from office, share a tea and snack and drop him somewhere and that’s all he know. My head started thinking a lot. I often felt like I’m overthinking.

He was unexplainable like we couldn’t even figure out whether he is teasing or getting self-teased. Throwing that confusion he neutralize every targeted attack that approaches him. Whatever happens, he gave that foolish, comical dumb expression and in the next minute he switches to cool free man like nothing happened.

I believe he don’t know how to talk with a girl. He talks about the worst stuff degrading himself, never cares about anything that matters us, have a different opposing opinion about love, don’t even have a phone to chat with. Maybe he is a fraud!

 The one thing that fascinated me was his style of adapting me. He eats my styles and phrases to tease me and puts it in, whenever the situation favours. We practiced the phrase of using “seri okay” for confirmation and that was the one he used first to tease me when I gave him instructions. Then he robbed my usages like ‘Ada Kodumi!’, ‘Vinayaka perumalae’ etc.… He was witty with his character and his lips keeps on moving every second of the day. Once he told me that, he keep three rules for himself for his office part. One was formal dressing code, the other was attendance and the third was the unbelievable one; silence. So he came office every day in formal uniform, and he came everyday even if all others planned for some leave together; but being silent was a real challenge for him.
A month passed in the shades, teasing each other and working with his improvement as an employee. He mentioned about my boyfriend throughout the teasing saga when something came wrong from my part. I didn’t want to expose me as a girl with a boyfriend but it happened. That evening we were in a joined massive attack with him. Unusually I supported him in a particular point crossing Athira and Sree saying, ‘my trainee is the best one.’ Soon he responded.
“See, I have my girl there” When he finished with confidence, Shree interrupted loud and fast.     “She have her boy already; who is your girl then?” He lost his face looking down and changed his tune. We burst into laugh with a hi-fi, confirming we scored.

Back in my room, I felt tired and kept thinking about the incident; it was confusing enough to decide whether I scored it bad. ‘She haven’t said that! How can I face him tomorrow?’
       Sleep erased all such thoughts when I woke up the next morning. After some days he asked about him along with some useless murmurs. “Silly guy! He is gonna suffer for sure!” When he murmured in a flow I replied with the flow. “Who?”
“That one; your boyfriend.”
Remembering that incident happened two three days back I replied unending but fast as an answer.
“Who told I have one!” Making the scene little reddish didn’t affect him anyway. Nothing does! He still felt cool and replied. “Ohww… Are you such a waste? You can’t even get a boyfriend in all these years?” He giggled in such a way to make me redder enough.
After a second pause I gave him answer. Slow and silent. “No, I have one. Shut your mouth and do your job.” I thought of winding it up; need some time for thoughts. He has that creepy behaviour of unblushing chase. He came up with the next comment.
“Why can’t that dialogue bring you enough happiness? Are you planning for a breakup?” Sudden but the same silent tune reply appeared little unusual.
“Shut your mouth and do your job” I backstabbed.

He was full of action, giving a bit of extra reaction for everything that required a little bit. He seems to be the mysterious person I ever know. Sometimes he appeared like a terrorist with intentional motives. One day I asked him about that, fitting it in the final part of a teasing strip. But he was cool and replied simply laughing to that. So that was a clarification.

One day I found him talking English in his broken half-working phone, and I’m sure no one was at the other end. So he is simply acting like calling somebody. He is not that well in English while attending office calls and while replying mails. Then why he do all this? Whatever, he is a very good actor bewitching us with tricks.

He said he don’t have much friends. He talks like an alien, with unacceptable rules and ideas that our modern world feels difficult to digest. I spent a lot of time rolling through his Facebook page, and found everything normal. He has a collection of handsome clicks which are well edited and maintained. There I saw a lot of his friends hanging around him and many photographs that explains his friendships. Liar! Maybe he is a liar!

I thought he can’t even connect with girls; because he had an unusual style of irritating commentary. But there was a lot of girls in photographs posing by his side. So maybe he is good person whom we can trust.

As time passed he started opposing ‘Love.’ His concepts were against the love and relations that’s happening through social media. He believes they will not sustain till end. Explaining concepts about each and everything. Even though his advises helped me with many problems that took place, I hate the philosophy in each and everything.

One day when I was returning to the table after lunch he was drawing something in the old table calendar that was thrown in the corner. When I asked to show it; after his usual hesitation style, he gave it to me. I was stunned after looking at it. He have transformed those pictures of fruits into something that is spectacularly creative. Creative! Maybe he is Creative!
Months rolled by…






Part 5

A Try for Resurrection


The next day we returned back to ‘Pallavonore.’ I understood the situation is getting much worse than ever expected. So I planned to leave ‘Pallavanore.’ I went back home were the situation is much worse. For making a change in the usual unenergetic lazy lifestyle, mom advised me to visit a religious convention programme nearby. There the prayers and chants gave me a proper relaxing feel. But my habits of addiction disturbed me to go for cigarettes. In the second day, while smoking at the nearby store, I get caught by ‘Swamiji’ who conducts the retreat programme. He advised me to come for a counselling. The last day I stood before him, explaining the problems. Controlling myself, overthinking, addiction and sleeplessness were my major subjects when it was made short. He appreciated me for my style of thoughts and control over basic sins. Then he took me to a psychiatrist who is consulting nearby along with the programme. After repeating the whole story again he instructed me to take tablets for sleep and addictions. The other problems can be corrected as a second step. He concluded saying “This is the only way out.” I said bye to ‘Swamiji’ promising him to come the other day. After coming back home I went thoughtful about his decision.

“I’m going to get treated from a psychiatrist. Am I insane?  “. I couldn’t control my feeling. I got feared enough form that incident. So finally I decided to make a working plan for myself. I analysed my problems myself and understood, if I could sleep properly half of the problems with me can be avoided. If I took medications, later it feels like an addiction which disturbs me from sleep without medicines. So I should find an alternate plan. If I feel tired then sleeping will be easier. Lazy sitting is preventing me from sleep. I googled about overthinking. The results were sorted to some practically possible points.

-          Go indulge in some work.
-          Speak less
-          Workout
-          Concentrate on something new that you don’t know about

I have to go for work. ‘Some hours later I got a call from ‘Varghese’ my batch mate and great friend who welcomed me to Chennai after telling him my decision to work in some company. He was working in some good company there as a trainee with very low salary. There he lived in a very small apartment with unfair facilities adjusting unbelievably. I joined him in the next week itself.
Being there in Chennai was expected to be a better part of life. But along with his friend we started drinking everyday again. Everyday!
In a month time I have applied for a hundred jobs and attended only three of them. The first of its kind in my life! I felt feared again, more than what I was been before. And my view on mighty myself and on my capability diminished. That destroyed my confidence. I became more useless.
The other day while drinking with some new friends, my phone rang. “Hi, Is this Dhyan Raghav?”   
“Yeah! Tell me” I replied. “Oi Hai…. Hmm… I’m Reshma Calling from Futurefleas Bangalore… You have applied for a programmer post in our company…. Soo…. Hmmm…..  Are you ready to shift from Chennai to Bangalore?”
“Ohh Yes! Well… Why not! If you could offer me a job...  So when can I come in there for an interview.”
“Hmm…. Your native is Kerala right?”
“Yes! I’m a Mallu!”   I was little afraid. Mallus have such a terrible status in the outside society.
“Soo… You should be having Onam Celebrations next week… Soo you can come one day after that.
Is the Monday after Onam fine for you?”
“Ohh! That’s so kind of you. You can expect me there by morning.” That conversation gave me a kind of confidence to attend the level for this job. A ‘Programmer’ job for a Journalism Graduate.
Her words were unfair and she broke instantly between words. That gave me more confidence to attend that interview. An HR with immature speaking skills sounds suitable for a plan I was looking about. So spending too much of time with the situation analysis and job background; I made a plan. A plan that could help my survival.

As an introduction to the interview, I have planned the questions and answers that could possibly been asked. A thousand questions and a ten thousand variety of answers! Adopted a neat style and purity in facial expression. Started believing like I got the job, so that no other forces could limit me from getting it. Then I thought about what to do with the job I got. There was a need for huge planning in order to make myself alright.

I should start believing ‘I don’t want a psychiatric treatment, I can solve it myself, I will work, I will exercise, I will sleep well, I will minimise my addictions to zero level, I could build myself, I will be alright. There was a proper planning I made after that. I’m going to work for the next four months. Four months are considered as four periods. Each period I want two percent improvement in my performance. The performance is calculated in terms of ten fields. Ten fields which are really tough for me to control in myself. They are


1. Mobile phones – Usage of mobile phones are restricted. My tablet got pit-pocketed while travelling in the public bus last week. I sold out my phone and got a broken one (Basic Phone) for me. By fourth month my avg. calls should get reduced to one.

2. Jogging – Exercises were part of my daily lifestyle once. Now I feel tired to workout. I believe this as the basic reason why fear is regaining power in me. I will get enough sleep if I can run some distance every day. If I can inhale and exhale gently then mind will get fresh and that could restrict overthinking.

3. Online – No Facebook, no WhatsApp, no Twitter, no googling. Internet became an addiction from college days. And the crazy intentions to write stories added more fire into the addiction for googling.

4. Speaking – Controlling my tongue from speaking was one of the tough tasks. I had that kind of a childhood where I saw my dad delivering powerful speeches in the corner road platforms. Sisters were all around me with hundred stories every time. I always had a lot of people to hear my stories. So controlling my tongue is such a difficult task for me.

5. Concentration – Rain is best thing I love in this world. Reason for that is the chillness and clarity it could provide. Rain erases my mind all in whole with its magnetic chanting sound and chillness. Concentration was among one of my long run targets from the half of my teen age. I’m not sure about a change. But let’s hope for the best as always. 

6. Sleeping – Long thread of paralysed thoughts that analyses every situation restricted me badly from sleep. Working with something else can divert me from overthinking. So I could sleep better one day. I’m expecting to get better sleep from the first month itself. 

7. Avoiding Problems – I loved creating problems and solving problems. Because I believed sad situations can bring happiness and happy situations can bring sad ones either. New place, new to the surroundings and background is better for a new start as a good boy. So there it is possible to stay, as an unknown, silent, foolish kid. I’m an expert in solving problems that could indeed create more complicated ones. I could possibly avoid creating and solving problems for the next four months.
  
8. Sitting – Resting in somewhere or someplace for more than a while was more than enough to drive me crazy. After the college life, with full on parties and celebrations, fixing my back in someplace for too much time became an impossible task. I do roam from one place to other while I get a small interval of time to relax. My usual routine without any programmes included six walks for tea. I have to correct the problem before anything else so that I could survive in an office.

9. Adjusting – I was so proud about my specialty in inheriting things. I could eat anything, live anywhere and control any stress. But now it is not the situation. Now I do have dos and don’ts list. I love somethings and I hate somethings. I should change it somehow so that I could regain my power back. I can get back with the star of quality.

10. Smoking and tea consumption – Smoking and tea consumption should be controlled. I don’t have an open mind that allows me to plan for quitting smoking and avoiding drinking tea. So the initial plan itself was to reduce the no. of cigarettes and tea per day. Two cigarettes and two tea by the end of this programme.

A week passed slowly in planning for the interview and the ultimate plan for boosting performance. The next week with my friend from ‘Chennai,’ I left for Bangalore. I have my relative friend studying in there who arranged us an apartment for two days to stay. He studies Fashion Designing in Bangalore in the National Institute for FD.

As pre-planned I prepared myself with neat looks and gentle expressions. The office wasn’t that big as I expected. The front office was full of dust and people who works on carpentry was running all over, while I waited for the HR to come. As like every office, watchman is our first target. While building up a conversation with that old man, a guy (Vincent) came out calling my name. He talked to me in English even though, his accent expressed mother tongue influence in the style. The first ‘Mallu’ in the desk; and that was disappointing. There it was congested with fourteen cabins in the bedroom spaced hall. There was some ten employees all over. I didn’t even looked at any of them like a shy guy with gender shyness.  They gave me some initial tests for checking my standards in grammar and spelling related matters. The HR came when I completed almost eighty percent of the test. She was huge and bulky like an elephant. She had an over-expressive face and had style of presenting. The one thing I understood was her love for foreign world. Then our conversation exchanged to my platform, where I performed well according to her taste. My sister who is married to a foreigner, the pizzas, my cousin who is a fashion designer student, my love for expresso shots etc. became subjects that attracted her attention. I believe the performance brought me the job within that day itself. But the salary was equal to that of our kitchen-maid. That wasn’t a problem for me either.

She gave me one day time, and I asked for one more day to arrange everything that is going to develop my image with performance. While travelling back to Chennai, we took a long route touching Mysore, Wayanad and Pallavanore. In Wayanad it was my friend’s wedding day; after helping them with the programmes and customs, we went Pallavanore and collected my Tamil friend’s interests for a Tamil outlook. The next day my relative guy gave me the key of his apartment and left for college. It’s a three sharing apartment. I got ready for my first day in office. I’m going to work under someone receiving a salary less than our kitchen maid. I refreshed myself with essential points to be remembered.


 [To Be Continued.....]

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Tuesday 15 December 2015

10 Things That Changed During Chennai Floods 2015


My Encounter with Chennai Floods 2015






Witnessing likes, tweets and comments flooding on our social media platform regarding the disastrous flood and the support came across boundaries left me in gracious proud. Those statements about donations, love, support, help and duty promoted values of brotherhood. After a safe encounter with Chennai floods, my memory about the week left interesting pieces that are rare patches of green in the city. My memories about the day was not that huge qualities and thoughts, but were true limning of a coming back towards human roots. 

Myself, born and brought up in the serenity of green paddy fields and flushing purity of backwaters in Kuttanad, felt untroubled when warned about the flood threat. Shifted to the hectic city, it was strange experiencing crowd, pollution and noise. For us people in Kuttanadu, floods are like annual guests in which he visits us twice or thrice every year, he scavenges our house, let government allow holidays for school and take the old with him on his return. Staying inside the vanity aura, built with strong-confidence, footed in experience from childhood was my stand. The factor that differ our small flood expected village from the over-packed commercial Chennai stayed low and silent.


I lived in Thiruvanmiyur, 500 meter near beach, third floor of a less spacious apartment, with my cousin, his friends and college mates. There was an ample supply of rain last week that gave me an unusual intemperate climate alert. Travelling almost twenty kilometers everyday to reach my office situated in 'Anna Nagar' made a three hour routine through the heart of the city crossing Adyar River, Anna University, Saidapet, T Nagar, Nungambakkam, etc. was long. Roads were flooded partially in the first day itself and it took three to four hours for me to make a travel one side. 

It was nostalgic for me to spectate over the waves that showered pedestrians in formal costumes. Those memories gave the dispirited man a crazy Kuttanad feeling. Unlike others, I enjoyed rain as a coming back of my best friend, who traveled all hills and tops in search of his favorite ally. It was a mesmerizing week with sprinkled drops on face and chill mornings that supported warm sleep. But by the time transportation became infeasible resulting in termination of public transport services. It wasn't strange for me and for that reason, the mood helped me to follow the usual pattern of office workaday. 
The pathway adventures worked extra hours on my journey, eating some time from my office hours letting me land at the office doorstep by noon. End of the day, when I stepped out from office many college news sources commented on my possibility in returning Thiruvanmiyur. Realizing the condition of getting stuck in there, my cheeks clutched an antic smile. The possibility of returning faded when office-mate's counselling forced me to stay back with a college bachelor nearby. It was the start of December that awaited salary with his empty wallet. My college who accommodated me borrowed money for my food and that let me decide from the sentimental scene about returning Thiruvanmiyur again. When the morning light hit hard, shining in the reflecting water surface, presented Chennai people a ray of positive hope. The way back to my place should cross our office and I got a tortoise bus that dragged through water in order to reach the bus stop near office. 'It will add a nice memory,' I thought while the bus card me in its foot-board with my feet totally under water. In front of the office stood MD, with an anxious expression on rising water level. Office announced its shut down due to scarcity in electric power that escaped yesterday from the city. MD expressed his concern for me in travelling back the whole affected route. It was that time I saw a bus with its board written 'Beseant Nagar' reaching the bus stop ahead. Even though it took some energy in running for me to get the bus, my heart pounded with hope. Few seconds later, while recollecting my lucky coincidence, making myself stand in comfort, bus conductor interrupted. “This bus will only go till T Nagar, if you want to step down please step down here” Soon, my lucky destiny collapsed with the false coincidence realization. There I had a long way to go and all I had was 50 rupees. It was a tricky enough situation to challenge my confidence and self-motivating became important so that those old trips we managed without money was helping my mind. 

 Reaching T Nagar makes it half way, god must be waiting for my arrival to open some other way; I thought. 
While reaching T Nagar I saw a bus turning towards the other half way of my journey. So because it was closer, I jumped out from the bus and ran towards the other bus, but the doors were closed. That bus moved faster through the less water releasing huge waves, gaining power to contest with the deeper sections of upcoming road.
Someway I found peace with the situation, confirming ‘there are still buses in that route.’ So I decided to wait for the next bus to come. The waves and water gave me a cheering energy to play in it with my foot touching water. While water level made progressive updating, I spend time watching those people around, isolated on their way back home. After an hour, fed up with the anticipation, I decided to get a tea for cheering up from freezing. While waiting at the tea shop with the paid bill, there came two buses passing through the way where I wanted to go. I made myself calm and concentrated back on tea. After finishing the tea, I theoretically ran through the water to catch the bus. Both of us were slow but I missed it within ten meters distance. Blaming my thought for tea and the minute, I waited for another two hours and realized those where the last piece of hope. Without leaving myself to mental dilemma, I thought of walking the remaining route. Within time I started exploring the deeper liquid concentrations on road towards the outskirts of T Nagar.
Even though I explain myself performing a dangerous operation, there was kids, ladies and senior citizens walking along with me. The eagle eye view at this particular minute will surely make you think of an ‘End of the World’ picture.  People disordered and sequestered in the middle of endless water, moving here and there; unpredictable about the next moment.
I must have walked almost three kilometers to reach ‘Saidapet’, an area with lot of poor people living in slums near river side. It felt like stepping into comfort zone when I reached out of T Nagar; but I realized it was just a foolish feeling when I walked further towards the river side. Those people there, lost their homes and some lives when the swollen river started its destructive race. There was only slight shattering of small droplets, but the effect last rain brought was devastating.

People where all running around, here and there, someone holding someone motionless in his shoulder like holding a dead body, shop fronts seemed crowded like never before, bus stands became shelter for large groups to escape from rain, old ladies were crying for unknown reason, some policemen are still searching for a safe place to stand and secure themselves and lot more was moving around.
While I started moving further the highway ended with a huge crowd. Some are holding their cameras in their raised up hands. I expected a worst massacre output of wild flowing river. I saw the other side through a camera; the river was overflowing up the bridge, and the bus I missed was set apart at the bulging part of that bridge, unable to move further. Even though I lost hope of reaching home, I felt good about my unfortunate luck of missing that bus and thanked god for the tea thought.
Rain started its next innings after the half break. Some people ran back to shop fronts and tree shades and some remained there looking for their loved ones among the dead updates coming within short intervals. I found an advertisement sheet hanged nearby and raised its two ends to cover me from rain. Later another guy joined me followed by two ladies. I was thinking about the existence of any other possible way to get back home. I enquired my partner in shelter guy, explaining the situation. He explained me back about his much worse condition, where his house floor is already under water and he finally instruct me another way back home. The next bridge. He is not sure about its condition, but I can make a risky try, if I’m ready to walk a long way round through water and rain, towards the next bridge. I rechecked my wallet. I have less than fifty with me now and that regained my confidence to reach home. When the rain took a slight pause, I started my long walk towards the next bridge. On the way I found an ATM where some three guys gathered for shelter from rain. I stepped into the ATM to check whether I have something left in my account, even though I know there was nothing. Watchman stopped me from entering and said, “No money sir, it’s out of order.”
Apart from the watchman there was two other guys waiting at its front, one Tamil guy and the other from Orissa. For the Tamil guy; his parents the other side of river has no money with them, he should cross the river and take care of them. For the guy from Orissa; his parents have money but they don’t know any other language than Oriya, he should cross the river to buy them food. For the watchman, he came three days back, the substitute for him is on the other side, and he can only leave only if the other security reach this side.
I felt great; I have no that bad situation like these people. When I enquired about the other way to go other side they show negative reactions. They said there are no way possible to get the other part of that river. Even they discouraged me with a rumor that spread instant. After a while, discarding all those negativity, I decided to start towards Thiruvanmiyur. It was the level 2 game for me.
After a while, due to continuous freezing I had a feeling for liquid out flow. It was more than any other essential feeling that I have to find a proper place for the dispose. I bumbled through water for getting out from that weird feeling and unwillingly slowed the activeness of walking. I walked back almost one kilometer towards T Nagar and find a queue before the cigarette shop. There was only limited stock of cigarettes in that shop and I saw the patience in people that resembled the queue before beverages in Kerala. So because it was freezing cold with rain wet cloths and slow wind I joined the queue for a cigarette. But I was in the other side of luck again this time. The man who stood before me was the lucky guy to get the last cigarette in that store. I didn’t wanted to loose, I bought a pack of ‘Chandrika beedi’, lit one and continued walking. At some places of heavy water log, water marked its level in my chest. With a cover in my hand raised upwards I tried moving fast through water. I’m not like the other ones around, I’m experienced, I can move fast. I tried motivating myself.
Finally I walk crossing a part of T Nagar, Teynampet, Alwarpet and some other unknown areas and finally reached a kilometre before Adyar Bridge. The only possible way ahead to cross the other side. In that long walk that took some three hours, I saw a lot of things happening around. A family taking selfie up in a car after their car get off in the water, kids playing in the little waves that comes when huge trucks pass by, young guys creating new water games for a session, and much more.
 “By the way I’m much closer right now. Let me relax for a minute; it is freezing heavily.”
I took a ‘beedi’ and tried firing it. But the match box is destroyed and it can’t make fire anymore. So I decided to try the alternate option. I tried firing it from a nearby store, the store keeper fired me away, then tried asking for help to an auto driver; he didn’t help. Finally that guy entered the scene. Gokul; man with the heart of an angel, the unknown angel of my story. He approached me with his fire lighter, asked about my way, and finally offered me a lift in his Pulsar150 bike as the third person. Rain was dropping heavily, he didn’t shatter from the two he got from roadside. He dropped me in Thiruvanmiyur, the angel of good heart. He smiled with satisfaction, knowing god gave him another chance to win. It was around six when I reached back in home, where there my roommates waited for my arrival with confidence. After giving my legs a thirty minute break, we walk out to the street for purchasing food for the next five days.
The street was unexpectedly crowded, even though there wasn’t much waterlogged roads there, compared to my unusual experience. But some thoughts surprised me.

There was No Bank, No ATM Services, No Electricity, No Charge in e-Gadgets, No Hotels, No Food, No Petrol, No Transportation, and No Network for three days.

1.     There was fresh air, zero vehicle sound, washed out canals, clean leaves, and a holy atmosphere in which only Nature can provide.

2. People started walking slow; there is nothing to rush, No Colleges, No Offices.

3. Everyone started talking each other; No Electricity, No Charge in e-Gadgets, No Network.

4. The poor started begging or starving, Rich started cooking, No Bank, No ATM Services, No Hotels, No Food.

5. Every Supermarket displayed the board "No Candles, No Bread, No Milk", like the slogan of basic life.

6. Parents got enough time to spend with their Kids; Teens started talking to their mother, because boyfriends and girlfriends are a phone range away. No Charge in e-Gadgets.

7. Everyone get introduced to their neighborhood and started playing and talking together.

8. Street workers experienced peace at their home shade and daytime professionals saw daytime sunlight and Fresh air. No Electricity, No Fan, No Charge in e-Gadgets, No indoor works. 

9. With closed eyes anyone can hear the chanting sound of human talk, like the old classrooms in the absence of teacher.

10. During the bad intervals of disaster also, rumor creating tongues didn’t stop. Whatever be the pathetic situation, nothing can change a bad human behavior (rumor spreading tongue).


Moral of the story: Whatever advanced the modern man thinks he is, Nature can turn it around, fresh like the old, within time.